I'm not doing this because of any sudden change of heart. I still feel it's a rather tawdry trick to present the new order of social care as empowering and embracing, when in fact services are being hacked and the things that you can actually have under 'personalization' are in practice very limited and hidebound.
I'm doing it because there isn't any other option. Personalization is now the only game in town so it's a game I have to play to ensure my son gets the care he needs - and in the end, that's all that matters. 'If you sup with the devil, be sure to use a long spoon.' - well I'm currently crafting the end of a very long barge pole into a small scooped out eating implement. I still don't like 'personalization' as I feel it's a clever con trick to make the public feel social services are 'doing the right thing' and giving disabled people and their carers the means to do things better themselves; when in fact they're simply cutting the money available, excluding more people from services altogether and 'allowing' those left to 'spend' their often reduced personalized budgets on very limited things, under very heavy constraints.
If 'supping with the devil' is the only way my son is going to get his care, I'll do just that. I don't look forward to the meal and I strongly suspect it won't be very palatable. When you're hungry, you tend not to be too fussy about the menu.